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✨ Highlights of the Week

heehee writing this journal on my way back to jb, and my mac only has 7% battery left 🥰

after a full reset, i feel brand new again. i took almost three weeks to really recover, reflect, and rebuild. but damn, i'm so proud of myself for allowing that space to slow down and go deep. 🥺

honestly, i'm glad this happened. it was the push i needed to step out of my comfort zone and get back on the route that aligns with who i truly want to become. deep down, i've always known i'm going to be successful—but how could i ever get there without going through these downs?

all part of the plan.

You can't control the wind but you can adjust your sail. it's not about what happens to you, it's how you react. Source

i just need to react calmly, move with intention, and make the right decisions at each crossroad. even though i was a little shaken, i know these small losses are just bricks—building the foundation for a stronger, wiser me.

and omg, side note—you won't believe what happened on tuesday morning. i was heading to the office like usual, probably still half-dreaming... and somehow, i accidentally flung my iPad into the air while walking to the mrt station 💀💀💀 i never use cases for my gadgets cuz i love the raw feel of them, but man, when it flew and hit the ground, my heart went like, "ouUchhhhhhh..." 🥹

on the 30th, i finally made it back to jb for 扫墓 after ages omg! even tho it was so tiring, but honestly, it was such a good time. time with family, laughter, prayers, food—all of it just reminded me how thankful i am for 节日 like this as a chinese malaysian. it's something you can't quite explain, but it just feels right. ❤️

📝 Reading Insights

recently, i haven't been reading books on my ipad during my morning commute anymore. i kinda shifted that habit—these days, i find myself talking to gpt instead. about anything. personal stuff, random thoughts, deep questions, even things i'm just suddenly curious about. i guess i've always been that curious kid who loves thinking, wondering, questioning.

honestly, tools like gpt have helped me a lot these past few years. it's like having a thinking partner that's always down to explore whatever's on my mind. and sometimes, that's exactly what i need to start my day right. ☀️🧠

🥰 Memories | March 24 ~ 31

✨ Highlights of the Week

i had a lot of conversations with different people this week, and i found myself both pouring out and receiving a lot of energy and inspiration. ✨

the most memorable one was a deep talk with my sister about what i'm good at and what i love doing. these two questions have been on my mind lately, especially after watching a reel on ig (i can't even remember who said it), but there was this one line that completely woke me up:

"the world needs what you are good at. when you contribute what you're naturally good at, the world will find a way to reward you."

that really hit me.

i brought this up with my sister because i know she's great at analysing emotions and understanding people. it's something she does effortlessly, and i think that's one of her biggest strengths. so i figured—if anyone could help me unpack this, it would be her.

she pointed out something that i never really considered before: what i'm good at is something i always assumed everyone could do. i never thought of it as a strength, because to me, it felt normal. but in reality, not everyone sees things the way i do. she made me realise that i have strong visual-spatial skills, pattern recognition, and the ability to learn quickly by observing and doing.

it was such an woah, wait... right... moment for me.

and now, i want to spend more time figuring out not just what i'm great at doing, but also what i truly love doing. and honestly? i didn't expect it to be this hard. i guess i don't know myself as well as i thought... 🥺

🥰 Memories | Mar 17 ~ 23

斜坡上的自行车

我才发现

我的人生就像在我家附近的斜坡上骑自行车

庆幸的是启程的时候，我已经在半山腰

而我喜欢这种往下冲刺的感觉

冲的越快，越开心

骑得快，就避免不了摔伤

还记得当时我撞了我朋友，一身伤疤。

家附近的坡就刚好有一个上下闭环

每一次的快感都需要重新登顶来换取

这不就像人生的每一个章节吗？

人的一生有些时候总是顺顺利利的冲刺

然后再轻轻松松接力登顶

但是，有一些时候

会遇到一些困难

挫折

被迫休息

还是太累了，需要休息

不知道

但

我坚信上坡越是辛苦，越是长

也代表下坡的路会更加轻松，更加长。

✨ Highlights of the Week

oh dear, let's not even get into the downs of the past two weeks—it was heavy.

idk how to explain it, but in short: i kinda love this feeling of losing something, being misunderstood, not being treated fairly, and not being appreciated. i've been through this multiple times in my life, yet not even once have i NOT overcome this shit. 😈 loving this feeling. this only makes me stronger, and deep down, i believe i have to go through this to level up.

note to self: "man, this is just one of many u're about to defeat. just make this a +1 to ur list! 🎯"

aside from that shit… oh man, guess where i went...

PHUKETTTTTT! 🏝️

omg, i have soooo many nice pictures to share, but let's be real—most of them are already on my instagram, and i'm way too lazy to repost them here. so, if you wanna see the vibes, just check them out there! 😊

this was the 5D4N trip i planned with my secondary school friends, yousheng & vinoth. funny enough, we booked it way before all the sad shit happened—unexpected, but damn, i didn't realise how badly i needed this trip. 😢

a short trip. quiet. just chilling. catching up. and then... just silence.

even when we weren't talking, it felt comfortable. no rush, no meetings, no unread messages waiting to be replied to (as i muted ALL my work notifications 🙊).

man, i think i'm kinda addicted to traveling rn, somehow. is it my way of escaping? or am i just truly enjoying it?

i don't know… but i'm loving it.

🥰 Memories | Mar 3 ~ 16

all the sun-soaked moments and beachy vibes are saved in my

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坚强的金子

“是金子就总会发光”

是吧...

或许吧

或许只是暂时的大风大浪打翻了我双手打造的帆船

船儿啊

你看起来并没有被打翻啊

怎么就不动了？

是我误打误撞造出的你不够稳固吗？

或许是我... 掌握不住你？

我 是怎么了

金子... 就总会发光吧？

船儿啊，你并没有被打翻啊。

是我... 掉入了海里吗

我想

就让我在底下沉淀一会儿吧

金子总会发光

这突如其来的破浪，打不翻我的。

振作起来吧，竞辉。🥺❤️

这是你打造的船，这是你航行那么久的记忆啊，别忘了你起航的初衷。🎯

启发：与 于兴远 的下班工位聊天

✨ Highlights of the Week

omg. this might just be one of the most embarrassing moments ever. 💀

for confidentiality reasons, i'll keep some details vague, but basically... i bumped into a team leader who isn't based in sg and was actually supposed to be my leader. and guess what? i didn't recognise him.

he greeted me first, full of energy and warmth, “hey, 竞辉, 你好你好！” and silly me? i just went, “哈咯哈咯 额 你是...?” 💀💀💀 and he paused for half a sec, then went, “我是 XX” and me? full delayed reaction mode-“哦！！...”

O.M.G. bRO. wth. idek why... hELPs...

in hindsight, i really should've handled it better—at the very least, i could've started with a better greeting, asked how long he was in town for, or just engaged more naturally instead of freezing like a deer in headlights. this was a major lesson for me, and trust me, i will not let this happen again.

besides that little social disaster, feb wrapped up on a high note. i managed to finish everything i planned for the month, and i also had an amazing lunch with a friend—such a perfect way to close the week. 🥰

outside of work, i continued my pt sessions with my bro, and i could really see his progress. he's been sticking to the plan i set up for him, sometimes? LOL, and ngl, that made me kinda happy. 🥺 it reminded me of when i first started gyming—how much people like marcus ong & genix guided me and helped me grow. i wouldn't be where i am today without them, and now, being able to pass that knowledge down to someone else? that's a full-circle moment right there bois. 💪🏼🔥

还有一个 highlight， 就是 vicuz——我以前在马来西亚认识的很好的 beatbox 朋友之一！从 Armageddon 2019 到 TCBB 2019，他就是 msia beatbox 界的谐星，每次上场都是搞笑节目哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈。

那天，我就突然想说在我 ig 也分享一下我的 blog，反正也没差，就随缘，谁要看就看。结果，好久没联系的 vicuz 突然发了我的几句话：

🥹🥹🥹 我真的 wow，没想到居然有人会喜欢我写的 blog。

突如其来的鼓励，很奇妙，也很感动。

我想，本来就没有放弃的念头，现在更加坚定了，我要继续坚持写下去！📝

🥰 Memories | Feb 24 ~ Mar 2

✨ Highlights of the Week

another hectic week, but honestly, one of the most productive ones in a while! i really felt like i was in the zone—managed to squeeze in a lot of things and complete everything i had planned. ☺️

aside from work, i finally set aside a night to discuss our upcoming phuket trip in march with vinoth & yousheng! it's always exciting to have something to look forward to.

also! i gave my bro a comprehensive leg day breakdown!

he's currently in spain for his degree, so we had to do it over a video call, which was a completely different experience compared to my previous sharing session with toby, where we did it in person. explaining movements virtually made me realise how important it is to be concise and clear—i had to be extra mindful of my words to ensure my explanations made sense without demonstrating in real time. i found this challenge really interesting and, surprisingly, quite enjoyable!

being a personal trainer has always been something i'm passionate about. not because i want to make it a career, but because i love sharing my knowledge and experience with others—helping them avoid the same mistakes i made, guiding them towards better progress, and seeing them grow in their own journey. witnessing someone improve because of something i taught them? that's one of the best feelings ever. 🥹

it also reinforces my own understanding of fitness. as Steve Bartlett mentioned in his book, if you want to truly master something, you need to be able to teach it to others. i can really see the truth in that now.

it also deepens my own understanding of fitness. as Steven Bartlett mentioned in his book, if you want to truly master something, you need to be able to teach it to others. this concept has always been in me, but experiencing it firsthand through coaching hits differently—it's a reminder that teaching doesn't just help others grow, "when one person is teaching, two people learn", it solidifies my own knowledge too.

📝 Reading Insights

this week, i revisited chapter 5 of Never Split the Difference—"Triggering the Two Words That Immediately Transform Any Negotiation." i've been actively trying to apply the paraphrasing + labeling technique to summarise conversations better. the idea is to not just restate what was said but also acknowledge the emotions behind it—this makes the other person feel truly heard.

it's definitely not an easy skill to master, but i can see myself improving. learning how to communicate effectively has been one of my biggest goals this year, and this small tweak in how i summarise conversations is already making a difference.

🥰 Memories | Feb 17 ~ 23

眼镜的伤

睡前打开电脑想写点什么，摸到眼镜就顺手擦了擦。

这副才换三个月，我很宝贝它——健身时都不戴，怕沾汗渍，时不时还会用肥皂清洗，比之前任何眼镜都上心。

可刚才对着笔电屏幕的灯细看，镜片上竟浮着一道白痕。像上个月失约时说的 ”下次一定“，像我新买的手机躲不过小刮痕，像所有我觉得 ”这次绝对不会搞砸“ 的事情。

不是说越珍惜就越长久吗？旧眼镜在背包里乱塞两年都只有浅痕，现在供在绒布盒里反倒刮花。

我明明健身都不戴它了啊...

指尖蹭过那道痕，忽然明白，或许，最深的刮伤就是我拼命擦眼镜这个动作本身

在过度呵护里磨出了伤痕

✨ Highlights of the Week

上星期多亏天擎帮我抢到位置，终于参加了 2025 ByteDance All-Hands！这次的关键词 “务实浪漫” 乍听之下有点矛盾，但仔细想想，其实很有道理——踏踏实实地把事情做好，同时用浪漫的心态去面对自己的工作。浪漫的意思，不是花哨的幻想，而是能够在完成事情的过程中感受到快乐，并且享受这个过程。

换句话说，务实是脚踏实地地做好每一件事，而浪漫，则是全心全意地投入，真正沉浸在自己创造的价值里。当你被需要时，你始终在场，并且能稳定地输出。这种状态，本身就很浪漫。

作为团队里的一份子，我一直希望能挑战更高的目标，不断突破自己，同时也从每一次经历中汲取经验，享受成长的过程。希望有一天，我能够成为更好的自己，为团队、为公司，带来更大的价值。

looking ahead, i've been thinking a lot about long-term goals. i love what i do now and the growth that comes with it, but one day, i hope to take what i've learned and build something of my own—a business, a product, a team, a community. to get there, i need to deepen my understanding of what people truly need and learn how to provide real value. there's still so much more to explore, to learn, and i'm excited to keep learning every day.

on a side note, time management has been a challenge lately. i often feel like there's never enough time in the day, constantly juggling priorities while navigating unexpected tasks. i want to get better at balancing execution with strategic thinking—knowing when to say no, when to delegate, and how to optimise my workflow so i can be more effective under tight deadlines, sudden ops, and dynamic situations.

🥰 Memories | Feb 10 ~ 16

✨ Highlights of the Week

finally, all that CNY fun is over. my sis and i got back to sg on sunday, and just like that, it's back to work! 💪🏼

weirdly enough, this time, i was actually looking forward to it. i found myself missing the work-life, the routine, and even the people. maybe it’s because the holidays, as fun as they were, felt a little too long? or maybe i just don't know how to sit still for too long without feeling like i'm wasting time. idk if that's unhealthy, but i can't shake off this feeling that something big is coming. and when it does, i need to be ready. i need to lay the groundwork now, so my future self has something solid to build on. law of attraction? we'll see. 🎯

开工大吉！🍊🍊

🥰 Memories | Feb 3 ~ 9

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✨ Highlights of the Week

as i mentioned in my last journal, i went back to JB on saturday for CNY, and honestly, last week was just so much fun! finally got to spend some quality time with my fam and relatives, catching up properly, talking more, and getting to know a little bit more about everyone. 🥰 i did so much better this time—heehee!

CNY definitely feels a little less exciting as i grow older 🥺, but no matter what, i still love the vibes. the food, the red packets, the mahjong (YES, i finally learnt how to play this year! but honestly... it ain't my thing heehee), the gambling (without money for me!), the laughter, the jokes, the stories, the memories—every little moment that makes CNY feel like home. 🧧 even if the excitement fades a little with age, i realise it's never really about the traditions themselves, but the people we share them with.

but deep down, watching everyone get older and the kids grow up hits differently now. there's this bittersweet feeling—like i wish i could freeze time, just for a little while, and relive those moments again, exactly as they were. but i guess that's just life, right? we grow up, time moves forward, and all we can do is cherish what we have while we still have it. 🥲

真的，时间啊，

你怎么不在该慢的时候慢一些...

你可以在我爱的人身上流失得慢一些么

but even with these emotions lingering, there were so many beautiful moments to hold onto. lo hey, fireworks, endless rounds of catching up, and just chilling at home with family—those were easily the best parts of the week. no matter how old i get, these are the moments i'll always treasure. 🎆🧨

of course, there were some small conflicts here and there, but that's just part of family dynamics. misunderstandings, miscommunications—it happens. but at the end of the day, what matters is that we learn, we grow, and we appreciate each other more. 🤝 after all, without the lows, how would we ever truly appreciate the highs?

🥰 Memories | Jan 27 ~ Feb 2

✨ Highlights of the Week

what a productive week at work! 🥰

i finally released the feature that i conducted UAT for last year in beijing, and honestly, what an indescribable feeling of seeing it go live without a critical bug? OK TOUCH WOOD... 😳 it's moments like these that remind me why i love what i do—everything just feels worth it. very good progress overall, and i couldn't be happier! 🥰💪🏼

another win this week was making strides in improving my communication skills. i've been focusing on active listening and giving others the space to share their thoughts, and it's been so rewarding. i also had a lovely lunch with a colleague from another team at paris baguette—my virgin try! the food was really nice, and the company made it even better.

on the fitness front, i managed to push myself to a real to-failure leg day on friday. but guys, did it hit hard... the soreness was real by saturday, just in time for my trip to JB for chinese new year celebrations. 🥲 and, of course, life had a little twist waiting for me—while walking after tapping out of the mrt, i got the worst cramp in my right calf muscle. it was so painful i had to stop walking and lean against the wall with my eyes closed, trying to recover.

as i stood there, i sensed someone looking at me. when i opened my eyes, i saw this guy staring at me, his expression full of concern. he raised his hand, clearly wanting to help. i shook my head and gave him an "OK" 👌🏼 sign, reassuring him i was fine. even as he walked away, he kept turning back to check on me. it's these little acts of kindness that restore your faith in humanity and leave a lasting impression. that stranger? he made my day, and i'll always remember his kindness. 🥹

it reminded me that even the smallest acts can mean so much to someone, so i'll be sure to double it, and pass it on to the next person whenever i can. 🌟

📝 Reading Insights

i have been revisiting the book Never Split the Difference by Christopher Voss, making notes on the key takeaways and strategies that resonate with me. you may check it out here.

when you visit, it might still be a work in progress draft, but i'm working on it! 📝

🥰 Memories